Countdown to Your Arrival
Daddy, Daddy
Your little girl is really
growing up now
And you will see
that my life would be so fine
And I’m gonna need you
even more now
…
- Daddy’s Girl by Emilia -
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"When do you celebrate Father’s Day in Indonesia?" the Debras asked me almost three years ago.
I said, "We only have Mother’s Day on December 22.."
My host dad looked at me with a grin and commented, "That means, we fathers are celebrated 364 days a year."
I rolled my eyes and smiled.
Missing Dad… (my real dad, not my host dad >> but I somehow miss his jokes and remarks), though my Dad and I have never had a super close relationship as a lot of girls I know have with their fathers… It just freaks me out to see someone who knows me so well..
In need of my dad’s advices… cause he always succeeds in making me think more rationally.. see stuff from a different point of view.
Wanting a gentle pat on my head… bonus a smile on Dad’s face.. telling me that he believes I’m gonna be ok. Cause strangely, he’s often right about things…
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Thank you Daddy
I know that I am blessed
To have a father like you
Cuz you’ve done your best
Under so much stress in the crazy world
God knows you tried
Even when you got your hands tied
- Daddy by Mia X -
Settled… I guess.
Ten years from now, when you look back at this moment, will you have any regrets? Will you wish you had the ability to turn back time?
Just a silly (but oh-so-annoying) thought that ruled my mind and caused my motivation reduce to almost zero these couple days. It all started when I was sitting in class about a week or more ago. Everything went as usual.. no storm.. no catastrophic whirlwind.. nothing extraordinary. Until all of a sudden, this question popped inside my head: "Why on earth am I here?"
‘… because, hun, you have class now,’ definitley wasn’t the appropriate answer to the question. It was that sort of serious-life related-thingy.. the kind of question people try to give answers to in pyschology books.
I looked at the lecturer standing in front of the class, at all the stuff he had written on the blackboard, at my notes… and I began to wonder whether I really liked what I was doing. Ugh… yes, but not really. When I think about all the dreams I’ve dreamt -and still dream about-; I wonder whether they still have a chance to come true one day, mettant en consideration the path I’m walking.
I started to think about Marie.. who decided to quit from her old school cause she didn’t like what she was doing (at all), and now loves her new matiere d’etudes so much. And Suzanne.. who -even after a year in Panama- still didn’t know what she really wanted to study and do in her life. Or Jessica.. who seemed so careless about studying back in Flone, but now seems to dig into her stuff in the U.
*phew* Sekarang sih, I’ve shaken the whole worries off my head. KLo ngga salah, waktu ngobrol ngga jelas dengan seorang teman, tiba-tiba gue dapat pencerahan… padahal topik obrolannya nggak ada seriusnya maupun hubungannya dengan masalah gue. *so amazing how you sometimes get answers in the most unimagined situations*
I think I’d just stick to my belief that there is a beautiful ending to each scene of one’s life. The options we have may not always be our most desired ones… but I guess that if we just do everything with hope and a positive attitude, it would all be worth it in the end. Am I right or not? We’ll just see… in, like, ten years or more..
- cheers -
Uncategorized | Comment (1)Alors, on est cool ou quoi??
Sometimes you just reach a point where you need someone to hang on to… not to solve your problems (allez, chacun sa merde hein); but to provide you a shoulder where you can lay your head. 
It’s called moral support. It could come from a friend, a lover, a sibling…
Sore kemarin, for the first time in a week, gue bisa berjalan menyusuri lorong rumah sakit tanpa awan hitam menggelayut di hati… because I knew that when I enter my sister’s room, my mom would be there. And that means my sister would get well soon. I know it. (and I’m right, cause my sister looked happy this afternoon ^_^)
Honestly, I feel guilty for asking my mom to come. It somehow indicates that I couldn’t handle my sister’s situation. Plus, I know she has loads of things to do in Medan… But I’ve felt so like hell since my sister’s been ill; and I knew that my mom’s presence would lighten up my sister’s mood.
This week, everything’s been like a sort of whirlwind in my head. Cuaapeeeek… But I’m cool now. Saking panik dan ribet’nya minggu ini, gue ampe lupa kalau ada teman-teman gokil yang selalu bisa diandalkan to make me laugh ‘til my stomach hurts.
Hmm.. buat certain people yang sempat gue jutekin (baca: cuekin) dengan ngga jelas dan tanpa early warning, maaf ya… I feel so bad for being so ignorant.. T_T Anything I can do to make it up to you???
Enfin. I hope everyone else’s week has been ok.
- cheers to all -
Uncategorized | Comments (2)Wakil Siapa?
Tadinya
gue pengen posting komentar panjang-lebar gue sehubungan “Revisi PP
no. 37/2006” dan para bapak/ibu yang, katanya, wakil rakyat
Indonesia. I had an almost finished 300 word text on the subject.
Tapi urung gue tampilkan di sini. Why?
Well,
let me answer with just 2 words: Capek bo’… Lama-lama
empet sendiri dan jadi males ngelanjutin commentary gue. Topik
yang satu itu (soal our so called representatives) hampir
selalu bikin emosi jiwa. Terlalu banyak pertanyaan di kepala gue
(berhubung gue nggak ngerti apa-apa tentang dunia kotor bertajuk
politik >> euh, no offense to those whose relatives or who
themselves make a living in this field).
Sebut aja dua yang
sering nyangkut di otak gue kalau lagi dengar/baca berita: Apa
sejujurnya motivasi awal seseorang pengen jadi wakil rakyat
(di Indonesia)? Apa mereka yang punya jabatan itu masih punya
rasa kebangsaan? Kalo iya, why do they do the things they do (the
ones reported on the media, at least)?
Enough
of this $*!^. Jadi panjang deh, ceritanya… En suite, stuff that’s
been dancing a lot in my mind lately plus some of my favorite quotes dari buku "Tuesdays With Morrie".
"Kadang-kadang kita tak boleh percaya kepada yang kita lihat, kita harus percaya kepada yang kita rasakan." - Morrie from Tuesdays With Morrie
"Aku tidak ingin meninggalkan dunia ini dalam cengkeraman rasa takut." - Morrie from Tuesdays With Morrie.
"Begitu kita ingin tahu bagaimana kita akan mati, berarti kita belajar bagaimana kita harus hidup." - Morrie from Tuesdays with Morrie
"I
hate it when people dictate me in a bossy tone – worse, they do it
while pointing their finger at me. I think that no one – not even
the most powerful person on Earth – should do that (no matter how
good their intentions). It’s just rude." - 310107
"Things ain’t always as bad as they seem." - 290107
"People
don’t give a damn about who you were. They only care about who you
are. " Keep your feet on the ground, cause things may turn 180o
overnight. - 2006
"If
you want more, you gotta do more." - 2006
- Cheers -
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